Tuesday, March 28, 2006
bu zhi bu jue... i've been with my bao bei for a month le... very fast leh... hee... we've been seeing each other for everyday ever since i finished my last paper... just now was our 1st month together.. we did nothin much.. so sorry dear.. i did not bring her out, cause really got no money with me.. all we did was, come my house eat dinner with my family, then watch king kong together with my dad.. haha.. bao bei watch till nearly fell aslp.. it must be really bored for her... =( after which, we spend around 45 min in my room.. hehe... it was so sweet loh.. she hugged me so tightly.. could hear her breadthin just beside me... just by lookin at her, my heart melts.. i felt si xing fu and happy with her.. every other thin just doesn't matter much to me when i'm with her... bao bei.. ure really the best person that i can ever have.. this kind of happiness just couldn't be explain by words...
she asked me, how come i kept on kiss her.. actually.. i really dunno y... i cant stare at her for too long.. i'll go kiss her de.. on her cheek, forehead, lips... everytime i did that, i just have a feelin that i'm fallin more and more for her.. each kiss represent 1 "i love u". i dun kiss her for fun u noe? ha.. sometimes.. i just wanna tell her how much she meant to me.. but i dunno wat to say and how to put them in words.. i'm so dumb rite? but lucky she accepted this dumb me.. or maybe she's more dumb than me? haha... die liao.. when she see this, she'll come disturb me liao.. and ya!! she's the only gal that dare to disturb me like this de loh.. other than me er jie of course.. haha.. but dunno y leh.. the more she disturb me, the more i love her.. haha.. no matter wad she does to me, as long as it doesn't hurt my heart, i'm very willin to let her do de... bite me, beat me, punch me, watever she wants.. i'll allow de..
just now while walkin her back home, she told me that she afraid that all this happiness will be gone next time.. just like how that freaking guy treated her.. i really dunno wat i must do to assure my pressence with her throughout the days till she leaves me.. i'm actually very scared that 1 day, she'll find me boring, not so fun to play with anymore.. then she'll loose feelin for me.. i'm scared too actually.. i tried not to show it.. cause.. i dun wan her to feel tt she has not done enough for me.. actully all the things she does for me, i really can see that she loves me.. but.. i still cant help feelin insecure.. a normal guy like me doesnt really deserve such great gal to be with me de.. i really dunno wat good things i've did to deserve such great gift... and now, i've gotten this gift le, i'll treasure her until the very last moment.. dun ever think of runnin away from me hoh tell u... dun say i didnt warn u huh... haha... bao bei... u'll always have me de.. as long as u care and loves me, my love for u will nv change... somba!!!! we'll surely have 2 months, 3 months, 4 months, 1 year, 2 years and nv ending anniversary de... hehe.. hope u'll not dump me by then... haha.. love ya sooooooooooo much... crazy over u le la.. die liao.. no image le... but nvm la.. u dun mind can liao.. who cares bout other ppl oppinion? haha..
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