Wednesday, April 12, 2006
on the 4th, 5th, and 6th of april, were the happiest days of my life... got to be with my dearest and sweetest yanlin for more than 48 hours.. for the 2 mornin that i got up, just by seeing her by my side, i felt so... xing fu... i really love her so much....... if she wasn't there for the chalet, if we're not together, i'll still be happy at the chalet i think... but i wont be able to feel the other type of happiness... which is the best feelin on earth.. to love some1, and get their love in return... its really the best thin... now then i finally come to realise that to love some1, and also at the same time, they fall for u, its really a difficult thin... the timing for the couple to have feelings for each other, the guts to tell the other party that u like them, how ure goin to express urself... all this really needs time and maybe fate... i really do cherish yanlin with everythin i have... the 3 days at the chalet, i had lots and lots of fun.. with friends and with my most beloved yanlin... that was the 1st time i hug her till i sleep... these days will remain with me forever....
just now, i had another crazy nite with my crazy friend... mark and dicky... hahaha.. we went to a street soccer court nearby mark's house and played... was kind of noisy... when i saw 2 police car drove past, we ran to take our belongings and ran like hell... haha.. was so tired... but we didnt end there... mark's sudden urge to kick soccer was really strong... haha... went to the field near jiemin primin there and kick... haha... had so much fun down there... there was once, i totally cant take it liao... then i lie on the ground... lookin at the sky... started to think bout my baobei... noe she's sleepin really tightz now... hee... then came to think bout lots of stuffs... wonder if i'll be able to see another shootin star not... but didnt la.. haha... we talk cork for the rest of the time there... suddenly, i just thought of ppl dying... wat will happen then? is there really a afterlife? heaven? hell? which part will i be goin to? or issit that death simply means a final fullstop in watever u do....? and its the end... u'll have no feelings, no friends, and no love ones... when i came to think of that, i'm really really very scared... scared that 1 day... i'll just be gone... dead.......... wat will happen to me? ppl will be talking bout me in past tense... which i definitely dun want!! i could not bare to part with so many ppl... esp the 1 i love most... yanlin... and my friends... family... i dun wan this happiness with my baobei to ever end... i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really DUN WANT!!!!!!!!!!! i promise i'll be a good boy if our love will not end... i'll work hard for my future... i'll care bout the 1 tt i love more... i just dun wan to end just like tt..... now when i come to think bout it, i think i noe wat life is about... actually, the greatest gift that 1 can ever have is.... life itself... yanlin... i'll cherish every moment i have with u de.... if not, i'll LBS!!!! haha... u thought me this new word de... hehe... ure my angel... the 1 tt makes me think so much... now, i have no cigarettes with me... and i plan not to buy a pack tml... i wonder if i can take it or not... i want to spend my time more worthwhile... i'll really try my best de... but if i cant do it tml, dun blame me k? and dun feel disheartened either... i'll continue to work hard as long as u still love me... thank u so much for every thin... i love you........ =) muackz!!!!!!!!!
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